New Year, New Me

So i know that this blog is mostly about my daughter and what is going on with her. Well I will tell you that she had a great Christmas. She got way too many toys and is loving all of them. She is in a neat place right now. She sings a lot now. She is really using her imagination now. She likes to play tea party. Anyway, she is beautiful and smart and funny and fun to be around.

Now, let me tell you about me. For a while not I have been overweight. Okay, not just overweight but OBESE. Now that is not a place I ever thought I would be. At my senior high prom I wore a size 1 dress. So how do you go from a size 1 to a size 20? Wow, that is a difference. I don't think I liked myself necessarily as a one but I sure don't like myself at a 20. I can't play with my daughter for long, I feel horrible a lot of the time...the list goes on. Well, how did I get here.

When i went to college I gained the freshmen 15. No problem there b/c I was probably underweight as it was. Then I went up and down as it goes until my Junior year. Then I was planning on getting married and stressed from the wedding and college so I gained a little more. i was still Okay, not over weight. I stayed about the same til I graduated. Right before i graduated from college Zach and I thought we were pregnant. Then we not only found out that we were not pregnant but that we were going to have difficulty getting pregnant in the first place. So began our journey to have the aforementioned Carly. Talk about stress and then through some fertility drugs on top of that and you get a lot of weight. Then add a miracle pregnancy and you get even more weight. So here I am...overweight and unhappy.

What now? Well on January 2, 2009 I decided that that day was the time for a change! Sure I had "tried" before. I would act like I wanted to do this and then cheat, cheat, cheat. Not this time. I am doing it right. I have changed how I eat and drink and I have started exercising. I love the way I feel. I feel empowered and in charge of myself! And guess what...I have lost 15 pounds already! I am so excited. I CAN DO THIS and I AM DOING THIS!